My mom is an alcoholic, and for the past few years she’s had a cycle of getting better and then falling back, a full cycle is about 2 months and I’ve lost track of how many times we’ve gone through them. Luckily I don’t live with her anymore, but I always try to “fix” her cause I try to convince my self I can, and right now I don’t want to see her again, but in a week I’ll try to convince myself I can fix her, and I hate myself for it. If you haven’t guessed she relapsed, and I can’t stand how I’ll end up trying to fix her, I do a lot of things I hate, but this is up there with some of things that’ll hold me back for the rest of life.