I [18AMAB] can't keep living like this. As much as I love my mom [53F], it feels like I'm walking on eggshells whenever I'm around her. She reacted horribly when I stated that I was questioning my gender orientation. Even though she said that she still loves me regardless whatever I may be, I don't feel that comfort in return. She keeps putting me down, and whenever I mention it to her she freaks the fuck out. Which leaves me suffering in silence. At this point, all I'm looking for is a escape. Maybe with a roommate, maybe with a partner, I don't know. I want to be free to express myself and to not feel like I'm constantly fucking shit up. I'm just stuck, waiting in the middle.