There's this guy who I really liked. We talked to each other for a year, and I even went to go visit him last August. Everything was great, and while it wasn't exclusive, there was some attachment. All the promises to talk things out and see each other again.

Well, last October, he ghosted me out of nowhere. I guess he finally got tired of me, or found someone else. But I just thought, with the things we went through, he would at least talk to me about it.

That first month was so hard, I was driving myself crazy looking for him. To the point that I made up some email with his name and company and it went through. I don't know if it was his actual work email, but that scared me enough at what I was willing to do just to get his attention. I even thought of posting a photo asking if people have seen him. But then I realized, he just didn't want me to find him.

Anyway, I deleted the app last November, a month after he left. And I'm also too scared to look again.

But I still think about him everyday. I keep wondering what I did wrong, or if I was too rash to delete him. Everyday, it's a constant battle of missing him, waiting for him and trying to move on and forget.

I just want to be over it. Over this obsession.