Useless , unworthy, replaceable, unloveable

Words that repeat in my head everyday, life has been up and down a lot lately and I was already so tired and done but today I just want to hide and go quiet, today on my walk home from work I was listening to music and didn’t hear the guy ( he looked maybe homeless or on something) we was walking behind me for awhile so I went down a street away from my house not wanting this guy to k ow where I live he been following me for at least 20 mins , i took my headphones off and turned asking him if he needed something , maybe help or Idono and he just looked at me I went to town away from him when he jumped at me , he was bigger then me by maybe a half a foot he ended up knocking me down with him come down on top of me I didn’t know what to do other then scream ( get the fuck off me ) he got a good grope before he was pulled up by three people that were walking by they seemed to have scared him cause he zig zagged away I just sat there staring at the way he went thinking what the hell just happened , I finally got home and just trying to relax and take my mind off shit when my kids dad came in yelling at me that nothing in the house as been done and that I’m being lazy again once he was done cause I wouldn’t answer him he walked away and I just sat in my bed , so that is were I am now 2 hours later thinking wth is wrong with me …

I just wanted to get it out and not have it stuck in my head anymore, now it’s time to put a smile on my face and go make dinner 😔☺️