the ''it all'' in the title is liquor, vaping, weed, and more.

I'm a young adult who lives with old traditional parents.
I used to vape every day and drink every other day, but one day I quit.
I'm now close to 5 years clean drugs and liquor as of writing this post, and for I'd say 4 years straight I didn't look back.

But today, I suddenly started craving everything. Hard.

I miss it.
I miss the feeling liquor gave me when I felt like crap and it would take me away from my situation just for a bit.
I miss the feeling weed gave too. Made me feel so much better.
As for vaping it felt like when I blew out all that vapour on my mod it was like I was blowing out all my problems. I really miss the nicotine part too, even though I quit that part before even quitting vaping.

My parents will be so upset with me and they might even kick me out. My dad said if he catches me drinking he'll kick me out but i'm 50/50 to if he really meant it or not.

Also quick note I quit vaping twice. Once in 2020 and again in 2023.

I'm about to say fuck it and buy more weed, vapes, and liquor.

My wise mind says not to because I already have issues and that might make it worse.
My emotional mind says do it.

If anyone can relate, please let me know.
I'm in desparate need of feedback before I fuck up and start again..