*edit - hesitated going to Reddit I just wanted to feel heard by someone. This entire situation is unreal. I’ve faced loss in the past but this is something my brain cannot find any way to comprehend why or how, just speechless and don’t know what to say to my dad even, just “I’m sorry” and try to comfort him. I know things happen in life but this is not fucking right. All of your messages are kind and appreciated, thank you.

My aunt, her husband & two daughters passed away yesterday from carbon monoxide. The most ideal & perfect family. I’d buy girlscout cookies from them every year & when I was really young I’d go to my grandfathers to see him and they’d show up as well. Honestly the things I’m saying don’t have any real meaning here but I think I’m in shock and just want someone/somewhere I can open my mouth and be supported. I am trying to comfort my dad but it’s something so out of this world I don’t know how to manage it myself and I feel there’s nothing in the universe I could do to help any aspect of this time. My dad/step dad gained custody of me when I was really young due to my mother being unable to take care of me. She passed 3 years ago & my biological dad passed around the time I was born. Some may see no point in me saying this but I say it so you can hopefully get a hint of how kind & positive this entire family is. My grandmother/his mother is 94, telling her something like this could be negative for her health overall, but then again we’re talking about her youngest daughter & only child that was born in the states rather than china. Hoping this gives a sense of how special she is to her. I know I’m rambling a lot of nonsense but I honestly don’t know what to say. It’s everywhere on the news, it’s everywhere online. I don’t understand how something like this could have happened. Literally on the way to work I heard the news about the incident but to us it was just a news incident, hours later we’re informed by his other sisters of the news. Just completely out of this fucking world & the fact I’m the least promising person in this family makes me even more mind blown. This isn’t about me, but these things make me really reflect on my life & feel so much regret. They were beautiful, loving, intelligent, every good attribute you could throw at someone, they had.

If you’ve read this far thank you, please keep our family in your prayers & please continue to love yours. I’ve experienced death before but this situation truly shows me you have no idea when that time will come. I love my family & I love every person I come across. I don’t ask for sympathy but rather just use this as your lesson to appreciate everyone you have, love them with your entire heart.