I feel lonely, nothing gives me hope cuz I overthink too much about (this is going to sound corny) the world, why do I had to born here in a dictatorship, it wasn't my fault I didn't vote for them, I hate living here in this third world country, I have no friends and when I go out I feel lonelier and I get mad when I come home. I don't know what to do I just spent all day long bed roting, I kinda hate being "mixed" and yeah I know the races term is obsolete but still feel sad about it, I hate my college is just full of teenagers and it reminds me of my high school which was one of my worst moments in my life, I don't know what to do I feel hopeless and I don't even have money, I just want to disappear I wanna get high or just travel to another country, I've never been in other country man this is so bad, fucking socialism, fucking shitty country, retrograde vintage socialist horrible country I hope someone nukes it