So I am suffering with ARFID(mine is fear of choking/throwing up) for 2 years now due to extreme amount of stress my ex husband put me through as well as being raped by his best friend. The case was closed and his verdict was not guilty. I am living my life on liquids(nutritional shakes and occasional Starbursts). I had 2 EGD procedures and I was only able to eat 1 month of solid food and then back to liquids. I feel like I'm never going to get over this and my life is doomed from the start. I want to eat normal food and I feel like there's no fucking hope for me. I just want to be a normal human and function again. I'm on Lexapro 20mg and my mental health is better, but it's this eating disorder that I just can't seem to beat. :/