Dreams. Confession of nightmares and deep feelings of sadness separation.

I have had many dreams (I guess nightmares.) of my dad dying. One of them I was in the car not really in the car but in his perspective and a tree came out of nowhere and crushed him while he drove away from dropping me and my sister off. Then him just dying alot. I would wake up and cry. I didn't tell anyone. Everyone I think of something happening to my dad I get super emotional and scared even at the age of 24. When I think of what would happen to my mom. Not so much emotion if at all. I mean I would cry and stuff. But not at the same intensity as my dad. I love him so much. I used to cry when he would drop me and my sister off and feel hopeless. I would instantly miss him and it would be like an hour ago when he dropped me off. I would smell the pillow he had next to him. It smelt of him. I would cry. I would say I miss my daddy I want my daddy.