Ugh it’s like especially in the aspects of men I feel like I sometimes will sexualize myself randomly bc I feel like that’s the only way they will like me or want to get to know me, but obviously it just usually does the opposite where it’s like they don’t gaf anymore or they are like not into/ only see me as a body from that point. I also make myself seem like more awkward sometimes and I’m really not that awk but I just overthink in my head a lot and then I’m like fuck sm I annoying them. Anyways I basically just need to learn to slow things down and like actually form bonds with people naturally without going into it seeking a specific end goal and letting my fantasies blind me. Bc I swear I start really picturing things when I get semi comfy and it gets bad I make a whole beautiful relationship in my head but maybe I’m the problem idkkk???