For context, i'm a gay man with insecurities, actually, many insecurities, and i've been searching male approval for years (i've gotten better with time), but lately i wanted to make some more friends, in the best of situations, i would like a boyfriend, but it seems impossible in this world, most gay dudes just want hookups, sexting, something for the moment, and once they have gotten what they wanted they simply block me. I'm a human, i have feelings, i have a heart, a sensitive one, why couldn't they simply understand that? Its fine if you don't want to talk to me afterwards, just tell me, its more mature than simply trashing me out like a mf toy. Honestly i really wanted friends but then boom, a dick pic, and i just play it cool, why? Because i want to at least feel desired, i just hope that afterwards they'll keep talking to me, that they'll keep thinking the same about me, maybe i'm searching for it. I know it already, i don't need no one to remind me of that. But its tiring, and mostly for friends i've came closer to, for example: Today i was trying to help out a dude so he wouldn't feel lonely, so he would be happy, i told me that i would be there for him, that we were friends and that i enjoyed texting with him, he was a great dude, and so on. Then he got horny, i had to play along and then boom blocked. Sometimes i feel like i'm just a toy, a plaything, i just wanted a fucking friend, a bit of love that i don't normally get, but ok, whatever. I'm sick of them.