Long story short ive been struggling with substance abuse for close to 6 years now, ive done everything u can think of that gets u high.. However meth is the demon that i just cant seem to completely get rid of. And its frustrating cause no matter how much effort i put into getting sober, I am unable to maintain sobriety even though I know I need and want to. The longest clean time ive had is 5 months but I foolishly believed that lie that my addict brain tells me whenever I'm trying to stay sober, and i for some unknown reason think its a good idea to get high "one more time" knowing damn well from past experiences that it is impossible for me. I can never have "just one" of any substance. As soon as I get a substance in my system I lose all control and im back to the same fucking lifestyle that ruined me, and broke me, and made me lose everything. I wish there was a switch I could flip that removed this horrible disease of addiction and I never have a desire for any substance again.. And one last thing, I hate this stigma surrounding addicts.. Most people tend to automatically look down on people who struggle with addiction it seems. Ive noticed a lot of people are very close minded on this topic, and think we want or chose to be like thisand that we could quit if we really wanted to.. Uhh it doesnt work like, I never wanted to become a convicted felon at the age of 21, I never wanted to become homeless and having nobody to talk to cause of poor decisions, etc a lot of people like to think they know what its like, but in reality they dont know because they have never experienced it. Yet they are so quick to tell us that "its all in our head" or "why dont you just quit" oh gee, if only it were that simple. I cant hold a fucking job due to addiction, and it is so frustrating and disappointing that I let dope control me. I hate it. Now, for people who are close minded on this topic can u pls tell me why? Not hating on u, im genuinely curious. I want to hear it from people who look down on addiction. I want to learn ur pov