It's been ~ 2/3 months ish, I can't settle my thoughts about how my relationship ended, I still care about them but what happened was a line crossed. It was around the election time in the uk and I'd mentioned in passing about the vote I'd cast considering the options were the same except for colour of tie. I mentioned I would vote for a party of reform, this did not go down well and set alarm bells off I guess? I'm a non voter and I'd only considered my options. This seemingly weighed heavily with my ex because I was asked multiple times why I would vote for said party. Until one day I was told it was really important to them and requested we sit and read their policies together. We did, and they weren't anything too radical. My ex couldn't really fault any of them, until it got to the big one about the flow of people into the country. They then decided to record me with their phone, without saying anything or asking if it was okay. I only realised because I caught the orientation of their phone out the corner of my eye. I didn't believe it at first so I checked again a few mins later and noticed they were grinning, I promptly got up and lent over them, for a kiss. Confirming my suspension and feeling utterly betrayed, like I felt pain in my chest so bad. I called them disgusting and kinda closed off from them emotionally. They exclaimed they'd deleted the video and they were sorry with loud cries and I just cut them off and told them I wouldn't be speaking to them. I just started gaming with my friend.

I'd only had one other time such a thing had happened and it was my brother standing me in front of a mirror telling me to voice my opinion of myself while he recorded me in secret and sent it to our sister. I was 17 and horribly depressed at the time ( I had told my ex about this).

Well election day happened and I was asked again about my choice of vote and I lied and said I'd protest vote the guy with a bin on his head. I did not leave the house I did not vote. I try to be good and caring but I'm still very much hurt as the weeks go on, we reach our anniversary. I set my feelings aside and focus on enjoying our time together. It was great we went to some lovely places and had fun. Coming home though I returned to gaming, mainly because an event I wanted to participate in was just a day away, I tried to keep interaction going with my ex but by the end of the week, when I had finished with the gaming event, they decided I'd not treated them as a priority anymore, that they already felt single. I apologised for being a cold toward them but it was over. Still thinking about them even now and I know talking it out is always better but I just couldn't find the words. I was so hurt.