I feel ugh my anxiety is driving me up wall everything settings it off. Small noises, quiet room, slightly suspicious looking tree.(exaggerating just tad.) But I digress it's seems like in hyper aware of everything and it burning me out. The intrusive thoughts are getting worse than usual and honestly I feel so tired I just don't wanna get up anymore. I struggle to clearly define these feelings with anyone. I feel like means to end sometimes not just in sexual manner but emotionally once I've served my purpose once I'm no longer needed the moment I'm no longer convenient that's it. The latter tends to be weighing on me lately The moment I'm no longer convenient for someone what the point of them sticking around. God my head is loud.