Me and my ex broke up and started to contact about a month and a half ago. She clearly has probably moved on and is all good now because I don’t think she actually really cared or gave a shit about me that much the entire relationship. We only dated for about 4 months but for some reason it’s been hitting me harder than any other relationship i’ve gotten out of. Anyway, I’m terrible for creeping ex partner’s profiles on insta which causes me more pain because they eventually upload something that hurts me or makes me think of them. I told my ex to block me on facebook and insta because I know that’s something I might find myself doing so she did. Recently I found out a way to creep her profile even though i’m blocked and I feel like I’m going to keep being tempted to creep her in the future now. I already did today. Wtf is wrong with me? Why do I keep feeling the need to do this even though I know it’s going to hurt me? I feel like a stalker and idk why the fuck I care so much about what she’s doing and what she’s up to even though she clearly doesn’t give a shit about what i’m doing/up to. I’m definitely feeling better in terms of hurt and pain compared to even a few weeks ago and I know i’ll continue to get better but this is hindering my progress big time.