I wish I didn’t make the same stupid choices that I did before. I wish I didn’t even agree to meet either of them. I wish I never met any of them. Because of it I have so many insecurities and personal issues with sex and boundaries. I was so stupid and just wish I could take it all back so I wouldn’t have to deal with the consequences of it all now. I wish they listened to me the first time when I said no. I wish I didn’t feel pressured into trying it. I can’t take back any of it now.

Because of all of my dumb and stupid choices I feel like I’m undeserving of a chance at making better memories since I feel like the old ones can never be erased.