I grew up a skinny kid. I hated it because I was bullied by my whole family for it... but it was easier than being chubby, I'm not even fat. Just chubby. But my whole family who used to be fat is now losing weight. And I'm out here gaining it. I'm only 18, 5 foot 6, and i should only be 140 pounds at most, but I'm fucking not I'm almost 200 pounds and I'm fucking miserable. It makes me want to die. I don't know if anyone will see this post but.. I'm so done, I've tried every diet and working out, fasting, ect. I'm sick of it all. I'm just gonna start to starve myself again like i used to, at least people didnt call me a fatty at that point in time. I don't care what anyone says, I'd rather die skinny then live fat.