This is gonna be sorta long but the context is needed to understand my POV. It's been about a month since my ex dumped me after cheating on me. We were a long distance relationship that lasted 2 years. I lived in worcester MA, she in California, we made it work, we would visit each other periodically. But then something changed within the second year, she started losing feelings for me the more she started getting comfortable with me. There were changes she wanted me to go through but never communicated anything until the end of the relationship, one of these things was my weight. She was always telling me how she loved me the way I am, because of that I thought I was accepted, but little did I know she hated the fact that I was fat, I told her she should have communicated that weight would be an issue, I would have started working out for her which I did, 3 months into this year I had lost about 20-30lbs, but she didn't want to wait on the progress, alot of her others why she started to lose feelings were for superficial reasons, my height, the fact that I snore in my sleep. Stuff like that. Most importantly she always said that our values were different but whenever I questioned her on it she always struggled to get an answer. I'm the fighter type, I don't like leaving problems unresolved in a relationship that's why I communicate things, but she didn't want to fight alongside me. She was supposed to move in with me this year which she was hesitant on, don't get me wrong I understand the hesitants, but me and her agreed that moving in together would fix the issues of distance and over all our relationship...but she never gave it a chance. Even her own brother was on my side and trying to help the relationship stay stable!! But no, one day she just breaks up with me and ends up dating a new guy 3 days later or so..I need you guys to fully understand, I got 2 jobs to support the relationship, I always made time for her, I was always there when she had issues, I was a good bf to her to the very end, to the point where she doesn't even fully know why she started losing feelings it just happened, she said she doesn't see us long term and I questioned why? Cause you're temporarily not feeling a spark? News flash, in a 30 year old relationship you don't think there's moments of just dullness where the relationship isn't exciting? Relationship requires commitment, love is a choice...but she's gone now..and while she's in a new relationship living her best life I'm here still picking up all of the pieces that she broke.. idk..I just..I hate her so much..I hate her..the more time spent not talking to he'd the more I realized she was very toxic, an example, my father died days before valentines day, instead of being my peace and comfort while I dealed with the death of my father, she was upset that her valentines was ruined by my sad state. Just..idk..I hate her so much and I wanna go through a villain arc so bad!! I already have bad luck with women to begin with..I just..I just idk.. this generation has no hope..