So I know this is a forum and all and the likelihood of anybody seeing this is significantly low

I have always struggled with self esteem and confidence of any kind, but lately, I've been feeling as if I'll never actually find "that person" and I'll never find real love nor will I ever feel a romantic genuine loving touch, I can talk to women pretty easily, but that's because I have convinced myself so hard that nobody wants me that I can no longer even conceive that anybody would ever want someone like me, again, this is just a Vent thing I don't expect it to be seen at all.

I can't post this anywhere else because I don't wanna hear the same crap again Oh you'll find someone is getting so redundant that I'm starting to get headaches