Childfree woman I've been talking to for 14 months just broke up with her long time boyfriend a month or two ago. I made plans to fly to her (six hours one way).

They had a dead bedroom. She gained a significant amount of belly fat. He didn't find her attractive anymore. Anyway, since the break up she's been sleeping around.

In indirect terms she said we'd fuck as well. I told her it's not a big deal if she changes her mind. We could just hang out as platonic friends.

Although, it's worse than that. After two of six days, she rejected my advances. Third day I asked her if she didn't want to have any sex. She literally told me she didn't want any. I felt like shit. The worse part is how she doesn't want to do anything platonic either.

I changed my flight 1.5 days earlier. Leaving tomorrow morning. There is just this heavy feeling in my chest and my gut feels horrible, physically.

It doesn't really matter, but I think she doesn't want sex because (a) promised one of the other guys she wouldn't (b) doesn't find me attractive (c) I said something I should not have (such as mentioning about my ex) or maybe (d) on her period. But she didn't say she's on her period. She just said she's not horny.. which I believe is a lie.