I’m currently 20 years old. I turned 20 at the start of the month.

I’m in community college and I’m still living with my parents. I’ve never lived alone or outside of the house. I plan on transferring to a state university and going to dorms. or getting an apartment in the next 6 months but I’m already behind.

I struggle in school. I find trouble getting the motivation to do even basic, easy assignments. I’m lazy and I fucking wish I wasent. I barley tried in high school and I hate myself for that, because if I had then maybe my life would be better. I’m going to major in finance, but I haven’t got any internships. I’ll be a junior, with no internships, experience or connections so it’s basically jover if I want a high paying job.

I have no job. I’ve applied to dozens and nothing. I have to ask my parents for money for food. I have no car. I have no skills or money making ideas. Everyone else does, at 18/19, but not me. I do basically nothing all day but the easy homework and play videos games or watch YouTube.

My physique and strength is shit. I’ve been working out since I was 17, and made almost no progress. I had some good parts but I ended up messing up. I look not very good and I’m weak as shit.

I have 0 friends. In person atleast. I have a group of 8-10 very very close friends but we’re all hours from each other. I’ve never been to a party, I haven’t hung out with anyone in months, never done anything like that. I’ve been single for over a year and have no dates, no hookups, no nothing.

It’s jover for me