My SO is so depressed and honestly a Debby downer. Negative Nancy. If it could go wrong it will go wrong type. They are always threatening to unalive themselves. They will go to the extent of putting a blade to their wrist but won’t ever go through with it. I’m getting so burnt out on trying to talk them off the ledge that I just want to shrug and walk away. I know you won’t do it. It’s for attention at this point. If you were going to do it you wouldn’t talk so much about it and make it known to me and show me the blade. I’ve been there. I know how this works. Don’t say I haven’t tried to talk them down. I do. It always gets turned around to some degree and makes me the bad person. Every time. I can’t keep doing this. How do crisis hotline people do it? Is it bc it’s always someone different? Yea I feel bad and feel like the asshole but Jesus. I have mental issues too. I can’t handle this everyday. I just need somewhere to vent before I take it out on the wrong person. You don’t have to comment or say I’m in the wrong. Really wanted 2024 to be better but not when it starts like this. Maybe I would be better off. Am I selfish? I don’t even know. Thanks for reading and letting me vent.