I've been having these really bad episodes of being ignored, forgotten, unimportant, like I'm just a burden to others and overall just an afterthought.

I already had an issue with all my friends ignoring anything I say like I can say something multiple n tinted and they'll ignore it but then they'll bring up something I had already said and will just say either "I forgot" which is understandable it happens and I get it but then there's so many times they just don't pay attention to something I say and then wonder why I get upset about it.

Today was my birthday, I already have a really bad taste of Christmas in my mouth so I stopped caring, sadly on top of that it's my birthday which gets overshadowed.

Most of my family really doesn't give a shit or stopped caring once I came out so I usually talk to my friends on Christmas, when they're done being with their family even then we always talk on discord throughout the day via text and while I really don't care about this day I know it sounds selfish maybe but even just a text saying happy birthday would have been nice it's only one said something and that's because I was in the same room with her but the others... Nothing all day I totally understand not being able to do something on my birthday, having a birthday on a holiday where 90% of things are closed sucks. Every year we always say something/do something for everyone's birthday just so nobody feels left out or anything but I of course got the shit end of the stick.

I don't care I didn't get anything for Christmas I don't care I didn't get anything for my birthday

It just would have been nice knowing my friends thought about me, so I can feel a little less invisible, so these thoughts of "these people don't actually want me around." To go away. Honestly just made it worse, and kinda hurts but at the same time I just expect being forgotten/invisible now.