My group in high school was Na, Ai, Cr, and Js. I've been away at college for a year but still tried to keep in contact with them. I come back and we hangout for a few hours last night. Js couldn't make it because he was sick but the rest of us were there.

I'm at a movie with Na and Ai right now - the two I was closest with. There's like 15 minutes of ads ahead of us before the trailers so I can type this.

This is so fucking boring. They're so quiet and have zero energy. The whole ride up here was silently listening to music. Same with lunch. Anytime I tried to talk or say something they don't really respond. When they do respond, it's dry and goes nowhere. Na and Ai will talk fine with each other but not with me.

Yesterday, Na told us he has donated his blood for money and me and Cr yesterday made jokes about it. Today I made another joke about it and Na was taking it personally. He used to be able to take jokes. We all did in the group. That was regular. Now, he's acting like a total bitch about it.

Today, I asked him about a girl he mentioned dating at some point and he yelled at me that he wasn't gonna tell me who it was. I asked why and if I did something. I told him I wouldn't make fun of him or anything and he just got more aggressive toward me, angrily yelling that I'm not funny and to shut the fuck up.

And earlier, I asked Na and Ai what they plan to do with their future and they just said "survive... like what the fuck else??" And acted like I was retarded for asking. I thought it was a joke so I kinda laughed and joked back but they didn't seem to take it that well.

I have no idea why Na is acting so damn aggressive. Cr is a hard drug addict who stays inside all day. I've never been close with Js anyway but ever since he started dating my ex, he hasn't ever hung out with me or anyone when I'm there. Ai is the only one who's mostly still the same. He's always been quiet and low energy.

I'm regretting even inviting them out to hang. This is so boring and pointless.

What the fuck actually happened to my friends? I miss who they used to be. Will I ever get them back? Or are they just lost causes now?

Anyway, trailers are starting.