I made the mistake of contacting my ex girlfriend yesterday. I know...it was a bad idea but just really missed her and I was just extremely lonely. She actually responded and things were going well...that is until she told me she had a new girlfriend but she hesitated to tell me she had one but I asked and kept pushing it because I was really curious of the person she kept taking pictures with on Twitter and Instagram because they seemed too close to be mare friends. She admitted it was her girlfriend and I didn't take that well admittedly.

I really wasn't thinking but I told her why did you date someone else so quickly and you didn't care about my feelings at all and I told her she was a horrible heartless person. She didn't take that well because she started yelling back at me telling me I was the one that cheated and didn't care about how she felt and I was a slut and I don't have a right to judge her for moving on.

I knew I was in the wrong but I was just so angry and hurt by the news because I guess I always had it in my mind she would come back to me this along with me having a hard time finding someone that wants to be with me while she already found someone.

I understand it was just pure jealousy and envy. I asked her did you two sleep together and she didn't want to tell me and just told me it's none of my business and I said yes it is because you at least own me that for holding out on me when were together for 2 years. She didn't reply so I think they did sleep together. I know I shouldn't be caring what my ex is doing and I should have long past moved on but just knowing she had sex with someone else after we didn't do anything for 2 years hurt me. I waited for her reply for hours and nothing. I replied to her again saying answer me and still nothing. I just got so frustrated from the silence I just told her I hope you suffer and die then I blocked her.

I burnt bridges as I think there is no coming back from what I said. I've been in bed crying and depressed all day and night. As of writing this I checked Twitter and she blocked me back....and message from her girlfriend telling me to "please leave (my ex name) alone". What an insult having the love of my life bitch girlfriend messaging me to tell me to leave someone I known far longer than her alone... I don't know what to do now..guess I'll just sleep..