I had to be barely into my first semester of college when my dad told me I’d be the sole caretaker of my sisters if he passes. It didn’t even come up because he was sick or anything. He was perfectly healthy but I took it seriously for whatever reason. Now that I’m coming to the point of getting my undergrad degree I’ve been feeling so much pressure and stress about getting a well paying job and figuring out how I can provide for myself and help my sisters if they ever need it. I didn’t mind this before but now that it’s becoming a reality I’m scared if I can ever do that. I’m also equally scared because I’m at a point of where I’m scared of where my life is heading and I’ve realized I haven’t had much sense of purpose for myself except for making choices to either please my parents or to think of how I can help my sisters. Like if I didn’t have those motivations then I don’t know what I’ll do with myself. It’s kind of sad but I can’t see myself living any other way. I don’t know. I’m just so overwhelmed and dread life after college.