A couple weeks ago I wrote a vent talking about how I wish I knew what I wanted. This is just an update I guess. It’s not much I guess but I’m just happy that I know for once something I am 100% sure of. And it’s that I want to talk to my best friend again. About anything. For clarity, for closure. We stopped talking to each other in a very uncertain way and I guess since then it’s made my life uncertain. They were an anchor in my shipwreck of a life.

I don’t mind if when I talk to them they say they don’t want to talk anymore, I just need to hear them say it. Because the last things we said to each other left things very up in the air, and not having that closure has been very confusing. I’m someone that usually moves on pretty quickly but I guess I can’t move on when I know there’s still hope. I’m going to contact her later and tell her I want to try to be friends again. I’ll respect her decision if she doesn’t want to but I really hope she does.