idk when it started but i've hated my family since forever. they don't do anything bad to me and love me very much yet i hate them so much and it makes me feel so bad but i also don't care. i've had disturbing thoughts about things that could happen to them and how much i wouldn't care. they're disgusting and being around them makes me disgusted. i've talked to them about how i'm feeling but they think it's just a phase as i'm a teenager (16). my friends judge me when i try to talk to them about it as they are also friends with my twin sister who is the worst of them all. I hate my life and something think about harming but never do. i sit in my room hungry because i’m too scared to go down and get food as i know they’re going to be there staring at me. my parents got me a therapist but she didn't understand my feelings and said that i was fine. everytime i think about how long i have to depend with them it makes me sick and i start crying. it has led to me to do many reckless things where i break glass or talk to older men. idk what to do anymore and i can't stay here. i need someone to talk to that doesn't sexualise me. please help.