So I met this girl, we talked, flirted a bit, and I finally asked her out, we even kissed a couple of times. Then a few weeks later said she didn't want this, she said she was attracted to me and everything, was just worried that she would screw things up or something I don't know, didn't want to make her uncomfortable so we decided to end things, stat as friends. Except I realized I was an idiot and wanted her back, but she had already found a new boyfriend all on less than one week.

So I stayed friends, trying not to let it bother me. It bothered me, I blew up in talk with about something stupid and fucked up our friendship, tried to recover the friendship didn't work. I was trying to deal with all this feelings, lashing out at her, trying to be friends again, and finally decided to talk to her about what I was feeling and letting it all out. She didn't want to though, said it made her uncomfortable, so she told me to say everything I wanted to say by text. So I did, feeling like a weight has been lifted off my chest, but something was still there, like I cant fully take in a deep breath of air.

I realize what was bothering me afterward, that she came out of this for the better. It wasn't a big deal for her, because she still has a boyfriend and her friends and I've got nobody. She literally told me that she doesn't want to see my face, not for at least a year, like I can't even have a face to face to properly end things.

And it pisses me off, and I can't tell her anything about this because I said I wouldn't talk to her again. Now I'm venting at 2:00 in the morning, hoping I can deal with this shit, because I heard it helps.

Is there anything I can do, anything at all, because I might run into her in a few days. Or do I ignore this and just try and life happy.