Hi everyone. My name is Chloe, im 20 and today has been a hard day. When I was younger my mother was an amazing parent. Who was making so many wonderful leaps in this world. She had a masters degree, she worked in law to help kids, she raised me right. Until about 12 years ago. 12 years ago she began acting weird. Making impulsive choices and reckless decisions. She also had a lot of medical issues. To sum it up, she became an addict, an alcoholic and a narcissist. A truly awful person who pushed away all her friends and turned into a mentally abusive husk of a person. And now 12 years later she has pretty much destroyed her mind. My dad split and we stay with him part time. And I hate her. Ive spent years angry with her and trying to just forgive but I can't. Not for all the awful things she has said and done to me. I hate her with every fiber of my being. And yet, I still love her somehow. But thats not the point. Truthfully? I miss having a mom... and today. I just hate it. Everyone asking me what I got for her. Watching people and their moms. A relationship I will NEVER have. It just hurts. I miss having a mom so very much.