I feel overwhelmed with the thought of making friends. I want more friends, but for some reason it's so hard to keep the conversation going with people for me now. I mainly talk to people from here nowadays. I know reddit isn't the greatest platform for socializing with people so maybe that's part of the problem? But I know a bigger part of it is me.

I feel so drained socially despite the fact that I really would like to make new connections and meet new people. It's even hard to socialize with my closest friends sometimes, so it's not as if it's limited to new people exclusively or anything. It's gotten to the point where this is starting to affect my self-esteem, and I feel as if I'll never be able to make new connections/relationships.

Growing up, I was never great at socializing, but it seems as if the older I get, the less people I end up being able to talk to? I'm starting to feel like something is seriously wrong with me. And I feel as if I'm "wasting" my teen years by not being as social as I'd like to. I feel like a failure.