I have dyscalculia and ADHD and I’ve went to my counsellor for accommodations(to which she refused by saying the most indirectly ableist thing I’ve ever heard), I can’t afford a tutor, I don’t have anyone else that can teach me, I’ve tried looking up tutorials, I’ve asked for more help. At this point I don’t even care if I fail my math class. I’m gonna to be a comic or tattoo artist and a writer, I don’t need to know any of this. It’s just some unnecessary stress I don’t need in my life.

The only part of me that cares is also the part that’s afraid of my parents. But even if I do fail, all they’ll be is disappointed(and they’re always disappointed so I’m not even gonna try to impress them). I have all A’s in my other classes. Now I’m at the point where I find it hilarious that I have all A’s in other classes except math, which is currently a D. At least the effects of grading in quarantine are still in place in my school and a D is still passing, otherwise I’d have to go through this torture again next year.

Anyway, I still can’t help but feel guilty for not doing my work. I’d do it if I knew how.