I want to start with that I love my mom. She's my best friend, I adore her. My mom had a stroke about five years ago and also lost both kidneys(she had a transplant now). So she's a bit slow when it comes to things. I have to help her with pretty much everything. Our current electricity bill is all messed up because she doesn't have the money to pay her half. Her phone isn't working because she forgot to to pay her bill. I try my best to help her but, I'm just not the caretaker type, and that's what it seems like I'm becoming. It's very stressful for me and makes me miss when I was living away from family. I don't know if my mental state can handle being a caretaker plus going to school soon. I know it's my mom but it's a lot of work for one person. The anxiety of always having to "be on", takes a lot out of a person. Especially when I can barely care for myself. I don't mean to be selfish, I'm just not a caretaker.