Si ce last year i have been divorced. At first it was friendly, but it slowly devolved into a fight. I got a burn out as well. But recently everything is slowly spinning out of control. My mental state deteriorated resulted in me seeing my 3 kids only 2 hours each week while working kn building it up to every other weekend. I was able to find a very small room to rent, but the kids won't be able to stay there for extended periods. Now my ex decided to lawyer up to get more alimony and more financial gains in the future.

She gets subsidized lawyer, while i have to pay for my own. I am afraid i need to sell my car, and i am afraid i won't be able to afford rent anymore if this keeps going.

I have no friends, and all my family lives far away. Losing my car means losing my kids. And losing my room means losing my job. I am already thinking about not paying alimony, because besides a verbal agreement, it is not written down. I am thinking about not eating as much, only every other day, to cut back on meal costs. Also think about sleeping in the car every other night to save on fuel cost travelling to and from work, while still getting the travel money from work.

Idk what else to do without ruining my life, but i feel cornered and stuck. Kind of damned if i do, damned if i don't situation.

She will be living comfortably after this month, due to all the child subsidies and a social construction from our government because she has no job, while i earn just a little too much (sometimes literally 1 euro on a year) to get any kind of benefit. I am lost.