im a newly diagnosed autistic person and having a hard time coming to terms with how its affected/affecting my life.

outside of a few online friends, i have one irl friend and just found out they're moving away. now i have nobody that wants to hang out with me, and i have no clue where i can make friends outside of the internet right now since mental and physical issues keep me from working. i would like to volunteer but im genuinely scared to put myself out there. i feel like i can't win.

fortunately i have my parents to keep me company, but as a 20 year old i do need friends and more in person interactions outside of them.

the problem is, when i do make friends, most of them end up leaving me and i dont know why. im not a mean or bad person. i try my best to be kind and do everything i can to support my friends. im trying to have hope that i will one day find people that will appreciate and respect me for who i am.

im tired of feeling so isolated and alone.