This feels like a dumb thing to vent about. I’m not really sure but it is bothering me I guess.

So I am going back to school. That already has some feelings behind it especially after having graduating 4 years ago.

I’m going to work full time.

So I’m stressed. Of course knew that going in. Doesn’t change that I’m stressed.

So, I don’t get a lot of fun time. Doesn’t help that I don’t FEEL like I get a lot of downtime because I always feel like I could be studying or catching up to get ahead especially with the couple of online classes I have.

So, the only real long down time I was hoping to have every Friday.

I have a friend who wanted to start up a table top session of Pathfinder 2E. For those who don’t know just think of it as playing Dungeons and Dragons.

So we’ve been meeting to talk about what we will do, what characters we’d make. The strategy while also learning about the expansion of the game we would be new to playing.

Well, it’s already the first week and my friend cancelled and my other friend said she was sick.

I was already sort of worried of being able to do these. It’s actually given me an excuse to not procrastinate on some things but damn I was looking forward to the first session… I really was.

I’m still new to these sorts of games and I’ve felt I’ve gotten into the swing of things a bit more than my previous times. So I was invested. It’s hard to do these things together cuz schedules not lining up. Work and my having school. But little stuff will do that. Plus honestly one of my friends I know is introverted and he has often used other excuses to get not do something. Never openly admitting it but he has definitely told me how introverted he was and i think it’s a safe bet a lot of the time.

Now I feel like I have to use the time I have now productively because I caught up on some assignments and studying. And I’m in this mode vs when I only had work to worry about.

This sucks. This is pretty lonely and it I just wanted some escape to decompress.