I’m probably just writing this because of stress. I’m a medical school graduate but i feel fucking useless. I work as a doctor full time but maybe it’s the type of medical position that i am in (it isn’t your usual residency/house officer job), but i feel like i’m not learning and not contributing to my patients. To be fair, i took this job for the money and the flexibility. I thought this job would give me time to think about what i want to do with my life. I’m surrounded by people doing masters, waiting to get into training schemes/residencies etc, some just passing the time here at my hospital. So a part of me feels i should try and do a masters part time/study but nothing “medical” interests me. Also, it feels like a cashgrab (because since i’m foreign i have to pay possibly 3 times the fees of what a citizen would pay) for many of the shorter courses advertised to make you more employable in your field. I was depressed and tired prior to starting my current role. I wouldn’t say i’m depressed but i’m not more enthusiastic about my career. Sometimes i wish i could start over, or run away, or leave medicine completely. But due to many factors, i cannot job hop and with the current layoffs and inflation, i am thankful for my job. I just want to not feel shitty today