I'm currently trapped in a car with my family for the next two weeks and it's only been a couple hours and I already want to either kill myself or else everyone else in the car.

I haven't spent this much time with them since I was a kid and I forgot what fucking egotistical narcissists my parents are.

This was supposed to be a special birthday trip for my brother, because he's been depressed as hell lately and I wanted to do something nice for him. We've both been looking forward to this trip for MONTHS, hell, it's something I've wanted to do my whole life. They asked to come along and I stupidly was like sure the more the merrier that will be fun.

They've taken over complete control of EVERYTHING, have totally changed and destroyed our careful plans, are being complete assholes and screaming at both of us over stupid shit, and there's nothing I can do. I'm fucking trapped here until it's time for our return flight. My brother is so upset, I'm so pissed, I'm trying SO hard not to cry but doing it anyway, my moms getting all pissy at me for crying, I fucking hate this.

Sometimes I start to feel like I'm too harsh on them and I should try to spend more quality time with them and give them another chance and try to be closer, but then they pull shit like this and I remember WHY I avoid them like I do.

I don't know how I'm going to make it until the end of this trip. This was supposed to be so fun. Goddammit. I feel so awful for my little bro. I've been straight edge almost as long as I've been vegan but I seriously think I'm gonna just get drunk off my ass next time we stop to eat somewhere and try to tune them out for a while. I wish I had the cash to get my own rental car and just leave, or that I was brave enough to hitchhike home or something. Fuck trying to get along with people just because they're related to you. When I'm get home I'm so done with them. I'm doing this again the right way, with my real family, the people who love me and don't hurl abuse over inane shit.

This was really dramatic, sorry. I just need to vent. I'm mostly hurting that my brother is caught in the middle, I think. I love my little bro to the moon and back. If this ruins his trip for him I'm gonna go postal.