Im really contemplating on quitting the game and just play it whenever I have friends.

Competitive just feels so punishing. You win a game and 19 and lose a game to lose -30. Its not even you're fault that you lost the game, you could be a match MVP and still lose 30RR. To top it all off Im not even a high elo player, Im just hard stuck in bronze. Im just a casual player and its like I dont accept loses, what I dont accept is this extremely punishing loses.

Sometimes when I lose my first game I feel demotivated to play the next game fearing that I would just lose another 30 and winning only gives me 19. When I do the math in my head I would just constantly be in at a negative value at the end of the day (week, month, year).