To the universe, I guess I got your final hint today. Nice guys do finish last and if I want to find love, if I want to find happiness, I gotta stop putting other people before me. I got to start being selfish, I got to start demanding instead of asking, I have to start taking instead of hoping.

Today I thought I could be myself and still come on top, thought I could support and be supported back, but that’s a fucking joke. It’s time I let my feelings die and become cold, to be distance instead of in the moment, to put myself above them.

Thank you for sending me the signs that I needed, for giving me a chance to change, to adapt and become stronger. I won’t give those who hurt me a second chance, they can go eat dirt. I won’t think twice about them, just step on them as I continue forward.