Dear Sir

Was having some conversations last night and I got triggered. It was shocking that I had a reaction. I didn't think you hurt me. I didn't think I cared enough. But apparently I did. Amd the realization of how little you were invested, cared or were engaged. My requests unheeded all to frequently. Struggling to keep things vague and I just want to yell. I want to be mad at you, but were already done, the damage done and the hurt deep. I didn't realize how right the other was. You weren't good. I kept trying to encourage you and initiate but it never had any impact. Even now I tried to talk to you and I'm not worth the 30 seconds. I don't know. I was hoping to stick around and be a support while you deal with your friends death day anniversary, but now I'm tempted to unleash all of my feelings and hurt and anger. Will it accomplish anything? Probably not but it will allow me the release and maybe you'll change for the next person. Maybe. I guess we'll see.

-Doe