Just like the title says. I feel like my life is one big social experiment. What I mean by this is that I feel like scenarios are set up in my life by my family and other individuals to see how I will react or find out what I will do. I am so very alienated/isolated that I don’t feel like I can integrate into society and act as a “normal” human being anymore.

This all began after my spouse of 7 years died in 2021. He died of cancer and ultimately a stroke. He died on my brother’s birthday. Ever since then I’ve experienced strange interactions and events, and I’ve even began to believe over time that I am being gang stalked. I also believe the same group of individuals have placed bets on when I will end my life.

I am tired of participating in whatever this is.

This letter will be directed to them, it’ll be short and sweet. So, here goes..

Dear whoever this may concern,

Fuck you.

Love,

-C. xx