I know you love me. I know you believe you do. When I tell you my concerns or needs, you become angry. I understand that after the years of me constantly questioning you. I tell you it’s because there’s rarely answers to my questions. But that does not matter. At this point it might be moot. The problem is transparency. I want a partnership. Not an old school “you’re a man” situation. I don’t need or want to be taken care of. I can do that myself. I need and want a partner who can see me as an equal. Not your little woman. F&$k that. I know I can give you what you need. What you want and desire. You know what I mean. All I require is honesty. Transparency. Why is it so impossible for that to be a thing? It’s real, right in front of your stubborn face. Yes, I’m beautiful. Yes, I’m amazing sexually. Wouldn’t you want to grow old with what I offer you? Yes, I have serious trust issues with you now. FIX THAT!! You can FIX THAT! Stop being angry with my questions. Freaking answer them. You don’t know what, why or where? At least try to answer…. I’m almost gone. I feel stupid and naive anymore. And my friends have abandoned me because they see me changing and suffering for what they feel is for nothing. I don’t believe what we can have is nothing. Open your f&$king eyes. Stop yelling and try to answer my questions. Obviously you are the most unlucky person for the fact that you look shady af in many of your actions Yes I have become regrettably crazy trying to deal with what is usually unresolved. FU&$ing resolve it for me!! Or lose me. I’m very close to resigning to our loss. Our loss of us. I love you. I hate quitting on people. I have to protect my heart and my soul. And stop f&$king yelling at me. I hear you MF. Hear me!!!