When we got together you were still married .( Currently still are)the reason we hooked up was because you claimed lack of physical intimacy with your hubby. Foolish y, i proceeded but what did I really think that suddenly you'd stay put? Let me back up not 20 minutes after establishing new found boundriesì, I find you linked up with another girl raging tonsil hockey going on. When I asked confronted you, simply shrugged and said look at her she's hot, smoking hot. I hadb to admit I was enthralled by it all, but even then did I get to be a part of the scene I was witnessing, as you figured no, no I wasn't. So that's hubby Sara and I thought what? That my gorgeously gifted from God eyes would captivate you enough for you to hold fast? In reality I gave the benefit of the doubt, hey fresh start right? Enter my downfall, tall lusty quick-witted and oozing with sexual energy we clicked immediately, but I know I've got a gf at this point . It was puppy love I couldn't stop my face from flushing and our connection grew with every passing day. The flirting grew intense and all 3 of us found ourselves naked having a blast . I didn't want it to end, I wantednto he naked with you 2 forever. But enter the green dragon of jealousy and lo and behold you and the dragon became fast friends. Now my Lusby Amazonian she wasn't the nicest to my gf at times . At times playing on then insecuritities of my gf unbeknownst to me. When all was said and done I still had not sent her up and I was in the doghouse. Fast forward 4 years and suddenly she's out more nights a week later and later till 1 one doesnt come home. It's another 6 months till I find out she had been cheating for awhile. You ghosted me all the major holidays Xmas eve and day also new years eve and day. In fact I didn't even get a happy new years until almost 2am. .. the n the morning beach sessions start and I think nothing of the skateboarder guy who keeps meeting you all down there seems he knew some of the crew. Well you netted him up good too because before I could change pillow cases theres a dude movi g shit into our room onto our bed and younstill had not explained the previous dude. Basically I got the Rhinos famous I choose them answer. Now I dont have anywhere to go still dont but now I have to hear him call her bade to hear the sex at night or before a shower and youve gotnthe gall to look at me cross eyed like I did you wrong ? I sat innyouninduced mushpot answering every and all details of my mishap but you expertly to this day fodge accepting any responsibility. And sadly, as of writing this id take you back. I dont know why. If it's the sex or Instant lack of , or my self esteem being that low. But I miss the shit out of you. The fakeness between you 2 is roaring yet day after day you guys play it off. I just wanted you to know I could letnyou go with proper closure . We can still be besties . In fact I'd be you biggest fan if I got respected enough to have a sit down and answer Mt questions as I had to answer all of yours.. wish you'd grant me that sonindidnt have to walk around being a dick 90% of the time, you selfish *until, Fer reals this time . I feel myself Drifting out from u nDer your spell.