Wish you wouldnt make me watch you push me away and make every wrong decision in my face along the way. Your still in love with me and it shows. It shows by how hard you try to avoid having any contact with me and the false sense of exasperation at the little contact we do have . But I see it in how hard you try to throw yourself at B, desperately trying to show him.[sic] or me rather that you can be the perfect GF. The thing of it is you already were to me. Well how does it feel to be the one stepping on instead of the one stepped on? Any easier up there, you seem to be coping just fine.?! It's not just my heart you stole it was my passion for DJing my passion for music, my desire to inspire by sharing a common love, no rather you greedily took all I offered and more not once even offering to share. Yet all of that is water under the bridge id take you back on a moments motice. I worriy that your own ego or pride would keep you from coming back knowing id still want THAT talk. After all I did and the ensuing maelstrom of "mushpots " that you made me sit through id be hard pressed to let you off Scott free without some guarentee that this would be the last time you question my love or doubt my loyalty because I don't know too many guys Kay , who would subject themselves to the torture I endure for a third chance at making the 1st chance right again... feel me and quit fucking around make me your lion king again this time with open communication being the glue of us two. Tell me anything and I can deal, just please don't leave me out here inside to freeze its killing me loudly but in a soft way- go figure FER_REALZ