Hey you,

I hope you're doing alright. Hope that your back isn't causing you trouble; your mom isn't getting to you; that school isn't too much of a problem. I miss you. Sorry, I probably shouldn't have said that. But it's true. I've missed you since we first broke up to be completely honest. Not because I'm in love with you and you weren't in love with me.

But I've missed you because you have changed since then. Did I do that? I'm sorry for forcing the change if you ever notice it later on. That break up changed the both of us, probably. I realize now that I do love you, but I love you unconditionally and platonically. It wouldn't have worked out between us romantically, but I still wanted you in my life like you wanted me in yours, too.

I'm sorry it ended the way that it did with me in tears and you hurt by them. I swear to God and anyone else who's of a higher power, I was not trying to manipulate you with my emotional outbreak. I don't like confrontation because it causes me to cry and I lose my footing. That last conversation we had was a long time coming even though it did not go as either one of us planned it to go.

Because it's true, you were being a bad friend by not replying to my texts for days on end or returning phone calls for even longer until you decide to call or text out of the blue with no answer to what I reached out to you about. At the very least, you could have started to try to tie it back to the topic I wanted to talk about rather than just starting with what you wanted to talk about. It hurt a lot to feel like I was suddenly put back on the shelf and forgotten until you wanted to use me for a short amount of time before putting me back.

Then there's us trying to hang out again in person. It never goes to plan if it does and if it doesn't, we don't see each other for months on end because we have conflicting schedules. It doesn't help that there were last-minute cancelations on hanging out because I know things happen but at least try to help with rescheduling. It sucks to feel like I'm the only one who wants to hang out with you and it makes you look like you couldn't care less in my eyes.

I thought I could be friends with an ex. I really wanted to be your friend. But I guess I'll never be able to tell you any of this because I had to delete your contact info on my phone. I didn't know what to do with the hurt otherwise. I already unfollowed your social media so it didn't seem like I was a creepy stalker ex. Anyway, I hope you're doing ok and I'm sorry for hurting you.

From, Me