J

I know that we have been through a lot, and there is a lot in our past left unsaid. For almost two years I've fought for forgiveness for my wrongs, and begged for honesty regarding yours. I know now there are some things you just can't admit or speak with me about, and I know the fight is never going to end.

I have to let you go 🥺

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Every time we come back around each other I picture your face at a concert, the way you danced, how great your company was at the dinner table, gaming, making love. You are a great woman, but the lifestyle choices we made corrupted us both I think.

Your friends are trying to lead you down a wrong road, and you can't see it. I'm not capable of stopping it, and it is like watching a train wreck happen with the love of your life in the first window. I want to be there for you, to hold your hand and pull you out of the wreckage, but I know you don't want that.

So I will love you from a distance.

That love will never disappear. We did too much together, and I had too many plans for our future. I'm just sad that our relationship didn't end peacefully....it seems it never does. I miss you every single day.

I love you more than Bs and Gs.

M