I’m not sure if I freaked you out with the last message I sent, but I’ve been crying about it for days. I haven’t cried like this since my parents passed. I’m honestly thankful for these feelings. I’m so sorry I was too much.

I’m going out tonight to just get as drunk as I possibly can because I honestly can’t really think straight without knowing what happened. I think about it all day and it feels like I’m being crushed while losing every inch of breath in my chest.

I should have known to keep my feelings a little more reserved but I honestly couldn’t help it. I’m so sorry Mia.

Your birthday is next week. I wanted to send you purple flowers. I hope someone does that for you some day.

You’re so smart, you constantly scared the shit out of me and you knew it. That lip ring and your hair color just is honestly still too much for me. Don’t stop being so bold and unapologetic.

I feel like I won the lottery, and then lost it, then some.

I thought about you and wondered if you got to work okay today. Your 5-6 am runs stress me out, but I’m sure you’re okay. I wonder how your daily meeting went. I wonder if you had a good time in Texas. I know you said you weren’t ready for anything and everything took you by surprised and I made you happy, and I just keep wondering if that’s true, how could you have disappeared like you did?

I’ve never felt something for someone, so intensely in my life. I know it was only two weeks but I also know you shared with me a lot. Things I’ll never be able to forget, without knowing if you’re okay.

Florida doesn’t know how lucky it is. I can’t believe I had you even for two weeks. If I ever get the guts, I’ll try to look for you in real life, cause I think you’re my soulmate Mia. I’m really sorry if I scared you with my feelings. I hope you know how genuinely amazing you are. And if I taught you anything I hope that it’s that you’re worth being treated better than you realize.

Love, Courtney Return To Sender