I'm not going back on it, fuck that was fucking dumb wtf did I just do, I had so much more to tell you, I hate everything Idk how I feel, I'm sad I'm angry, embarrassed and I feel fucking weird, I fucking love you. I said it, are you happy? Jesus fucking christ, it's so overdue and it doesn't mean anything now, I'm always late when it comes to this stuff, but I fucking love you, you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met, I have thanked god a million times for the mere fact that ig stories and highlights don't have a view count on how many times someone viewed them, because my god i have them memorized by now, I watched the video of you doing a little tiny dance before praying a trillion billion million times and it filled me with so much warmth and relief every times I saw it. You cannot understand, my fucking god you will never understand what you do to me, or what I feel when I look at you, youre the fucking cutest, Ik this is out of place and random as fuck but I want it said and out there so it can leave my fucking mind, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, you amazing piece of fucking shit with the cutest personality and the prettiest looks.

I. JUST. WANT. TO. BE. OVER. YOU.

I know for a fact that Ill come back to this post and cringe my spine out of my body but fuck me, your eyes, your lips, your chin, the shape of your face, your body, your skin color, your makup, your style, your laugh, and the sound of your voice, I fucking love your voice, your habits, your snacks, your cooking, your coffee, and your smell, I remember your smell so well, your walk, the way your body bruises easily, your rings, your fingers and your weird hands, I have never seen hands I loved so much, your nails, your eyes, your glasses the way you looked without makeup, your pout, your tears, your vulnerability and your strength, your good side, your bad side, your anger, your shouting, your absolute zero athleticism, your laziness, your dreams, your ambitions, your hotness, your fetishes, your birthmark, your weirdness, your weakness, i have never met anyone who flies away with the lightest of nudges, your hair, your clothes, your caring side. And so much more. I can count forever and still have more to say about you, youre literally exactly my type and I will forever keep looking for someone that compares. I hate whoever gets to have you. And I want you for myself. Moving on and growing up, I will always love my memory of you.

Goodbye love, ill always regret not having more of you, not having you for longer and not seeing all of you. I want more. Stay on the right path and I hope you find good in life and all that you deserve.

To my first love. You are flawed, and you are perfect.