"Go tell M. My life story".

Well, me and her haven't been in contact for more than a month, and after we talked and said goodbye she cried her eyes out, talking to her left me shocked, she is genuine, her emotions are real.

Yet she doesn't have 5% of the closeness you and I did, I didn't give her 1% of what I gave you, and we spent so. much. more. time together, yet the idea of losing me forever doesn't trigger any emotion in you, not a single response, nothing, you're not effected, you don't care.

So don't play the victim, telling me I deserve better when I don't want anyone but you doesn't change a thing, it doesn't guilt me.

You never wrote me random messages, you did once before when you went to the hourse track do you remember? So you are capable of showing you care. Yes something as simple as a text that took you 2 minutes really made a difference. And I really appreciate it, yet I'm starved of it and Idk why, Ik if you feel those feelings you would've made an effort to say it so all I'm left with is you simply don't feel them. You never made an effort to check on me or see how I was doing even if it was from century to century I would've really appreciated it, you only ask "what's your problem" when I act different with you or "I'm off" and after that you throw the "you've been like this for a while" around so lightly without thinking if it's even true or not, you disregard all my effort when you try to play the victim like that.

"what's your problem"??? how about you ask in a different way. Maybe just maybe not making me out to be a bad friend if I feel like shit would make talking to you easier.

Still, I'm sorry for calling you a bad person, I dont believe you are one, I should've said selfish, you are selfish, disregarding, thankless, and uncaring.

Go meet new people hope they're worth what we had, hope you see what you lost, what you let go of and what you neglected to death. I really cared.